During class, we had a decision about judgment and about meditation. I feel like people should be themselves and I need to realize that. I am Matt and I am a Cosplayer. I wanna wear it out and be me, no matter what people think. I know people like it, but most people think, why am I wearing it. I am wearing it to have fun and be me. Lately, I have not been able to be me, but lately I have been doing things to be me, like going to a club to socialize and to go to Cons to show my cosplays and to have fun.
I also need to do meditation. I always thought it wouldn't work, and sometimes it doesn't, but I know that I need to give a shot and a longer shot. I need to breath more and to do Yoga and Poi. I always wanted to do Yoga and learn fire spinning/poi, as it seems like something that could get my head together and to calm down, as my anxiety is always high, due to issues that I have been through, which I will talk about during the fear assignment. I have done a little Yoga during the summer camp that I worked at, but I want to learn more, which is going to be hard since I am not physically active nor athletic, but its doable and would be lots of fun. I am still learning who I am and what I am about. I am finding who I am and I am starting to love myself more everyday. I am a straight, white, nerdy, unique 25 year old that is willing to learn more about myself and the world around me!!!
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Like I stated before, I have a video game channel on YouTube, and I have been wanting to do a Video Game Top Ten for the last year or so, so I thought this would be a perfect time to do one. I also have been super addicted to Pokemon, that I thought it would be perfect to do a Favorite Top Ten Pokemon list. For the Round Robin, what I did was I recorded my intro, I put it into Premiere Pro, then I got a list of my favorite Pokemon and recorded a voice over for each Pokemon, I then put the decor on each part for the Pokemon. After that, I put recorded an ending of me wearing a costume of my favorite Pokemon. I used me and my voice for the non-digital parts and I used Premiere Pro for the digital parts. I made sure that it all synced together and I got my first Top Ten list done. I really enjoy doing those and I will be doing more for YouTube and gamers, when I have time. I want to do a favorite video games Top Ten and many others. This is a Pseudo-career and it is something that I enjoy, making and editing videos and video games/anime/my interests. Now to answer some questions How did the creation change as it went through multiple media? -I had to make sure the audio and music were at decent levels and I didn't want the music to compete with the audio, so I had to change it many times to get it to work. I also had to edit the decor and to make sure everything looked presentable for the public. How different, or similar, was the final product to the first creation? -It was about the same as I wanted it. I just had to re-record my audio, as I flubbed up multiple times. I wanted my audio to be fluid and to make it so I didn't have to edit my audio (mainly cutting out parts and make it seemless) How could this apply to your field of study outside this course? -My field of study is video, so it could help me with making the graphics and decor better and make the video have substance and I need to make my voice not as monotone as it normally is, I just wanted to be serious with it, because Pokemon is a very serious topic with me. I love it!!! LOL I think making Top Tens are a good way to get practice with splicing and transitions, which I know I need help with! What did you learn about media in this process? -You can really make anything into a video and people will watch or the right audience will watch. My videos are mainly 18+, due to language, but with my carefree attitude, it could really be for anyone, as most video games are E for everyone that likes video games!!! Also, I learned that video is amazing to edit, I really like making video and this is a good career path for me. I like making videos and having people watch them and enjoy them, even if my videos may still have an amateur vibe to them! So, during class we did a project with paper. The first part was to do something with the paper with only our hands and I loved that. I am sortof good with my hands, not that way, but I am decently good with my hands when doing projects (without drawing) so I make something with ripped paper, which is really fun, but then we had to do a writing exercise for 30 minutes. I was BORED OUT OF MY MIND, as this isn't interesting for me. I am just not a writer/drawer, so I did it, but I don't want to be negative about this. I understand why we did the exercise, so I am grateful for the opportunity, even tho I was not a fan. I think that doing odd projects is good for creativity and ideas, so it helps my creativity on wanting to do something in my field. I may not be good on articulating my ideas, but I feel like writing them down, so I can understand them. The writing exercise helped me realize that I need to write my ideas down more often. A boring exercise can be very helpful in the creation of other ideas and things, and an appreciation of the stuff I like and have the ability to do!!!
During class, many of us are being asked if it is the Altered Book for our enjoyment or for other's enjoyment. For my Cosplay book, I think that it might be for both, but more for me. I was picked on when I was a kid, at school and at home. I never really got to be a kid and dress up for Halloween, past age 12, so I couldn't really be a kid at all. I had to grow up and focus on school. I was told that I had to stop playing Yu-gi-oh cards when I was 15, if I wanted to drive, so I had to stop, so with watching adults dress up in costumes, Wilfred and housemates on Big Brother, I thought that I could do that and be who I wanted to be.
I get gitty when I think about getting my next costume, because it makes me happy. I have always been the one to make other people happy and to do provide help whenever needed and I love doing it, but sometimes I need to do somethings for me. I get some of my family members telling me that they worry about me because I dress up and I sometimes sleep in my costumes (some of my costumes work as pajamas and are really comfortable), so I have been contemplating if I should even dress up at all, since my family are really the only people I really have (mainly my mom). I don't have many friends, so I don't have the support that I would need to wear costumes and be ok. I got started at Ivy Tech and there really isn't a community of Cosplayers there and one day, I even got laughed at by a group of students at Ivy Tech, because I was wearing my wolf hoodie, because they were being Assholes. It's hard to really be happy with the things I do, when I get made fun of and rejected, but this is one thing that really like to do and it's for me, and being at IUPUI, it's taught me that it is for other people as well. It's a two-way street. It's a way for people to get to know me, and it's a way to get myself out there and be who I want to me, A dog/Cosplayer/Pokemon/Digimon/Animal/etc...
I know that most times, I don't know really who I am, but I know about things that I like and things that I do, and that can be viewed in 2 ways: the way I see myself and the way other people view me. I like to dress up in Cosplay and what I see myself is a lonely person, who is dressing up to show people how goofy and silly I am and how to show that I am not a bad person and that I do care and do love to have fun. I think people view me as a lunatic and a childish adult. I am 25, so I am an adult, but I had to grow up really fast, due to family issues, so I never really got to be a child, so dressing up, is a way to show my childish side, so that is true. I have been dressing up for a while now and I have heard people think I am weird and a lunatic/crazy, and maybe I am. I am not hurting anyone or doing anything that harms people by me dressing up and I try not to dress up in a way that is offensive, so I am gonna do what I love to do, especially at IUPUI, where their is a Cosplay Community, so being crazy and weird is a good thing.
I was also questioned as to what Cosplay really is and if people that wear make-up and get their "game-face" on, is that Cosplaying? I have always thought Cosplay was Costume Play or wearing something of a fandom of a character or series, aka Spock from Star Trek. I think that make-up could be a form of Cosplay, if you are dressing up for a particular character, like an actor does for a TV show/Movie, but wearing make-up for everyday use, I am not sold on that being Cosplay. There are doing it become "pretty", which I feel people are beautiful they way they are, so they do not need to wear make-up to become "pretty", but people do it for self-esteem issues and because they want to, then power to them, but I don't believe putting make-up on for everyday use is considered Cosplay, but I am open to the fact that it could be Cosplay, anything is possible!!! |
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